You know in the movies when the character is lonely they zoom in on them, the sound drops and everyone and everything around them starts zooming past... well that's how I have felt the last few months.
I had no real direction for my future, let alone next year. And Its as if all those who are close to me are drifting away, leaving one by one..
...First was my American hero; loud and full of love for the Lord. Not only was he my riding partner and friend, but he also stole my heart...
...Next was a very dear friend; one who over the past few years had done nothing but support me. He was always there to lend an ear or a shoulder. He suffered through Pete Murray, protected us at Stella Kart and endured the rough and tumble of city life to watch a mates gig with me. I will always have a soft spot in my heart for him...
...And to come my pastor and his family are moving to America, (ok so there going there to study the Bible), but I;m going to miss them, they may never know how much they have meant to me and truly impacted my life, and there will definitely be a whole left when they go. He was my youth pastor when I first came to the church, and he stirred in me the desire to know God. And his wife is amazing. she is so hospitable, and caring, and kind, compassionate, and selfless, and so much more. And there kids without a doubt put a smile on your face. each one so different from the other they cover all bases, quiet, loud, silly, sensible, smart, inquisitive, entertaining... and much, much more...
...But I suppose the saddest loss of all is that of my best friend. She didn't just leave as such but we have grown increasingly apart. She engaged which is exciting and blessing news, but is part of the reason for this distance. Other then that its the job that keep us apart, our interests have changed, and we just don't seem to make the time for each other like we used too. Unfortunately we are drifting... I miss the old us... the bffs that were hoes over bros...
So the camera is still zoomed in, everyone else is moving at the speed of life, and I am standing here alone, waiting for the rain to lift, the sun to shine, and the sound track to start playing.
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Wow, those comments about your pastor and his wife were very encouraging....it's hard when you are feel like you are just waiting...back in my young single days :) I did a word study on wait and the verse I found through that study sustained me through lots of seasons when it felt like everyone elses life was moving on except mine, there is such purpose, hope, joy in waiting and in change.
It has been so wonderful to have you around our home, your life, character, love for God is encouraging, inspiring!!
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